hay fever?

Did I get hay fever?
I don't know, but I'm not in a good shape today.
I feel dizzy and sleeply, though my nose is not running.

Today I had only one class.
In the class, we watched a video about black Americans in 1960-1961.
However, I slept a bit in the class...
So now, I regret it because that was the only class today.

Anyway, I'm working for presentation on next Thursday the last three days, and still I'm working for it.
I hope I can finish it today.

Between Real and Freedom

As you know from the title, I exist between real and a kind of freedom now.
The exchange program ends in a month.
So, I have to leave here in a month.
I could realize that's a big thing for me.

I won't be able to meet friends I made here anymore after I leave.
Actually, I could make a lot of close friends here. So, it'll be hard that I will not be able to hang out with them a month from now.
At the same time, I know I have to finish this free situation.
I'm an exchange student and I have nothing that regulates me, which means I'm totally free here.

I can just enjoy the life. It's a good thing, I know..
But, it's not always good thing for me.
Most of my friends since a junior high have already started working.
My friends in the same Biology Department in college are all seniors now.
I need to realize more that I'm spending special time here.
It's possible that I can avoid what I don't want because I'm just an exchange student.
Formally, I'm not a student of both colleges now. It's true.


Yesterday, I sent email to one of my friends in Kanazawa.
We were both in Biology Department.
Now, he is a senior and decided a lab.
He said he spends almost all day in the lab. He goes to the lab in the morning and goes back home in night.
I'm sure that he enjoys the research but he said he spends busy days.
He could tell me what lab other friends chose and are doing now.
I cannot imagine that they are all senior and decided lab and I would be a senior if I'm in Japan now.
They are getting responsibility more and more.

I will have to do a job hunting after I'm back to Japan.
Also, I'll have to decide a lab in which I work in a year.
Now I'm spending free time, but that's the real.
Yeah, I'd better to prepare for the real before I'm back to Japan. Otherwise, I'll be sufferd from the gap.

Programming

If I can choose the major now, I would definitely choose computer science.
Programming, it will be useful for my career.
However, it doesn't mean I want to be a programmer.
My major interest is business.
I just want to know the system of computer to help my career.

If I can fulfill one thing, I would choose to become an entrepreneur.
I'm not sure I will be an entrepreneur in the future, but I always dreams to become it.
Now technology is improving, especially in the field of computer and Internet.
It's necessary to acquire computer skills for success.

So now, I'm learning c++ by myself.
After I get broad knowledge about it, I'm going to learn Java more deeply.

Anyway, I'm going to bed now, I have done nothing today though... sigh...

Less than 1 month

It's already April 15th, and I'm leaving here, Williamsburg, on May 15th in the morning.
So, I have only less than 1 month left.
The time passes so fast... Everytime I feel it when I count the days I can stay at W&M.
I cannot believe almost 8 months have passed, and also I don't want to believe it.
Sometimes people say they feel as if it happened just yesterday.
This sentence is just overexpressed, but I feel it passed only 5 or 6 months..

However, here is a contradiction.
I don't think the time passes so fast this semester.
I'm really enjoying this semester, but I don't feel the time passes fast.
I cannot find the reason...

It's good for me to reflect the past and realize what I did and I learned at W&M.
I believe I can cherish next a month much more by doing this.
Honestly, I cannot write all of them here because I did so many things and I learned a lot.
But absolutely, this year is the biggest in my life ever.

I made a lot of close friends and hung out with them here. Sometimes, we discussed about variety of topics, from politics to our way of life itself.
I could get confident to myself and my ideas in those discussions.
I realized my ideas can affect people who are listening to me.
At the same time, however, I knew I'm still immature. I noticed that I'm not trying to listen to others as much as when I'm speaking.

Moreover, I'm changing everytime.
I had been more serious when I was in Japan because I had so many things to do and I assigned so many tasks to myself. Originally, I like to be busy, and it has not changed though.
Here, I have more time to hang out with friends and have conversations with them.
Now, I'm relaxed. As I wrote before, I'm emphasizing only on academics and social life.
I can be the real. Now, I feel I'm in a high school again.


To tell the truth, I don't even know how long I can keep it in my mind that I learned here after I'm back to Japan.
Definitely, I have much more things to do there than I have here now, such as job hunting and part-time job.
Moreover, I like to do "something" that I can be absorbed in.
Before I left Japan, I did stocks exchange and made a couple of websites.
Now, I have another plan and I'm going to do it in Kanazawa, I don't tell about it here though.
The plan is going on only in my head. When it comes clear, I'll explain about that.
The plan might always change, so I can tell when I could verify the plan.


The topic went wrong way a little bit...
Anyway, I'm going to enjoy the time that I can spend with my friends here.
Also, I'm going to make good memories.

sick...

Today, I slept almost all day.
I caught a cold, and had a fever.

Now, I got a lot better.
However, I did nothing other than sleeping...
So from tomorrow, I need to study hard again to compensate for what I left in this weekend.

Think possitively, it was absolutely good for me.
Somehow, I was so tired the last week.
So, it was a kind of relaxed time for me today.


But, I've been so relaxed since I came here.
I'm not doing anything special here.
I'm enphasizing on only academics and social life.
When I was in Japan, I did so many things. So, I spent busy days...
If I'm in Japan now, I cannot spend a day as I did today.

Anyway, it's already April 12th.
I cannot believe it and I don't want to believe that this study abroad is coming to an end in a month.
I'm going to enjoy the life more.

to accept other opinions

Sometimes, I feel I have to accept other people's idea when in discussion.
I know, but it's very hard to do it.

Anyway, I'm so sleepy today and have to wake up early tomorrow morning.
Now, I go to bed...