Sunday, May 31, 2009

What I learned in US

It's late to write about my study abroad program in US now.
It has passed almost two weeks since I left William and Mary.
I should have written early... I know.. Now I write about that.

Honestly, I'm not sure if I can express all of what I learned at W&M.
It is because I learned so many things, and they are all precious for me.

I write only about the most important thing what I learned in US.
The biggest thing I learned is definitely the importance of friends.
I learned little from lectures, but I learned a lot from casual conversations and discussions with my friends.
Mostly, we had very casual conversations and had a lot of fun from them every time. Sometimes, we raised serious topics, such as education and politics.
Also, I made so many good memories with my friends.
I hung out with my friends almost all the time when I was not studying.
I cannot imagine my stay at William and Mary without having friends.
All my memories are with my friends.
That was my first time that I could think my treasure is my friends.

Before I left Japan the last year, I thought I can live by myself.
I had a lot of ambitions of success in my career before I left. So, I sacrificed time that I could spend with my friends.
However, I realized that is wrong idea.
It's not overstated to say this; I cannot live without my friends.
I need to be happy. To be so, I need to have a lot of close friends.
I can enjoy the life with my friends, get presure with my friends, and improve myself thanks to my friends.
They are all true.

I wrote all about "friends."
I'll keep relationships with my friends that I made in US, definitely.
They are all my good friends, and some of them are my best friends.
Also, I'm going to make more friends and have fun time in Japan.


By the way, I have a interview for an internship tomorrow.
I'm not nervous at all. Or rather, I'm so excited to having an interview!
I'll post about it after the interview tomorrow!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

a new laptop

I got a laptop.
I already have VAIO, so this is the second one.

A big difference is the size.
This new one is much smaller than VAIO.
This is really small, and I can take everywhere.
I might spend more time with the computer...

Actually, I bought this computer only by 1 dollar.
I made a contract with E-Mobile, a japanese company, for 3-D network.
I can use internet almost everywhere in Japan with a small device which connects USB.
The connecting speed is 7.2 Mbps, so it's not so fast. In case of ADSL in Japan, it's about 100Mbps.
However, it's enough for almost every use. I can watch Youtube with no problem, and download movies with a little bit more time.
But the problem is when I use Skype.
I can cleary listen to voice and see video, and they can listen to my voice.
However, the video that they get is not clear enough...

There are some problems, but mostly I'm satisfied with the work.
I can access to the internet everywhere in Tokyo area.
It's nice, isn't it?
I feel the development of technology.
Sometime in the near future, the internet access will be much easier.
We will be able to find wi-fi more easily, and many people will have a device that I have now, or similar one.
Anyway, this field is everytime improving and attractive for me.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Leaving for Japan

I'm leaving the volunteer center in an hour.
Finally, I'm going home.

I got relieaved after I talked with other staffs and changed the date of the ticket.

My flight is at 15:45.
I'm leaving here before at 11:30.
Hopefully, I will arrive at the airport at 12:30. The officer of Malaysia Airline said that I should come to the airport 3 hours before from my flight.

I already got ready for leaving. I finished packing the last night.

Now, I'm fine. I can meet my family and friends tomorrow.
I'll decide what I do after I take a rest for a couple of days.


While I'm here, I was helped by my friends.
If I could not have chatted and talked with them while I'm here, I would be definitely distracted.
My heart was almost broken yesterday, but my friends helped me.
I talked with them a lot through Skype.
I realized the importance of having friends this year at William and Mary and here, Indonesia.

Anyway, I will post next articles hopefully after I'm back home.
Bye

Thursday, May 21, 2009

I'm in Jakarta now, but

I haven't posted articles for a while.

Now, I'm at the volunteer center in Jakarta, Indonesia.
I came here the day before yesterday.

I'm seriously thinking to leave here.
I stayed here only for 2 days.
I know we cannot decide anything in such a short time.

But, I can't work here now.

There are two other volunteers here, and I already talked with both of them a lot.
They are really nice.
Also, I met all children who live here. They are very sweet.


However, I'm so confused by the difference of the situation.
I was in US two days ago. I had really fun time at Stanford with my friend.
And, I had a great year at William and Mary. I made a lot of close friends and hung out with them a lot.
That is definitely the first greatest year in my life.

Now, I'm in Jakarta.
I decided to come here by myself. I wanted to know the rest of the world by living in a developing country.
I was born and raised in Japan, and I studied in US for 9 months.
I know how much a lucky person I am. Only a few people can live in those economically rich and socially sophisticated countries.
I applied for this volunteer program in Indonesia to expand my view toward the world.

But, I need a rest now. I stayed in US and came to Jakarta.
I'm so confused by the difference of societies.
I know this is not a good thing for everyone who are relating with this volunteer program and my friends who are supporting me.
But, it is the best choice for myself.
I need a rest.
If I work here longer, my heart would get broken. If I become such a state, it's very hard to recover from it. I have to avoid that.

When I was in Japan, I thought I'm mentally strong. Also, my friends said that to me a lot.
However, I realized that I'm not strong at all. I'm same with my friends mentally. I'm not a special. Also, I'm not a machine.
I was ready for coming here. I thought I knew the situation here. But, it's very hard for me to spend here.
I made so many good memories in US, and I haven't been back to Japan for 9 months.

I can't be here anymore.
I need to leave.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

orz

What's happened to me?
Still, something is wrong....

I'm getting quieter and quieter these days...
I know I'm not like this.
I really don't know what happened to me.
Also, my friends noticed something unusual of me.
They say I'm more active usually.

I know.

I hope only the time solve this.


Ah,.... I have written something gloom these days.
I need to fix myself.

Test week

It's already on Tuesday.
Also, it's a test week.
My first test is tomorrow, and the last one is on next Wednesday.
Now, I'm studying for Environmental Science and Neurobiology...

I have a lot to do.
I'm reading so many books especially for a take-home exam of Environmental Science...
But, it's fun. So, it's ok.

However, the problem is neurobiology...
It's so hard to understand and I also have to memorize a lot.

I'm going to finish the take-home exam today and start studying neurobiology.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Something wrong...

Something has been wrong since Friday night.
I'm not dipressed at all, but SOMETHING is wrong.

One of my friends also noticed it.
He asked me what happened to me, but nothing happened.
Even I really don't know why I'm feeling like this.

I don't think I'm sad now.
Honestly, I was sad the last week when I thought about after the semester.
Now, I got fine.

However, I don't feel good.
WHY??

I spent great time both on Friday and Saturday.
I enjoyed the last day of class on Friday, and I enjoyed a crazy thing with my friends yesterday. We burned Hello Kitty at near the lake the last night.
I really enjoyed both days.

But, I feel I'm not "me" now.
I'm quiet now. Usually, I'm not such quiet..

Anyway, I cannot do anything to recover by myself.
I'm hoping only the time will solve it...