Looking back the last 4 months at Sony

It has passed almost 4 months since I started to work at Sony.
Although I say "I started to work" above, I haven't officially started the actual job yet.
The last 4 months were training period for new workers in IT Department.
After the long lasted 4 months training, I'll finally be assigned to an actual job on August 1st.


As the title shows, however, I'm not satisfied with the job honestly.
Some people say it is because I graduated from college recently, which means I was free as a student but I am not anymore. I now belong to a community where we are at least demanded a sacrifice to be a member of the company.

Also, you might say that all people have such feeling in the first year of work, and they will reduce it as the time goes by.

However, I do not think this is because it's the first year to work at a company and lessen this strange feeling I already have. I like being "free" and hate being oppressed by a big power.
I think I have done a lot of things differently and tried to be unique since I was a child.

Moreover, I think there are many people who like working for big companies, but what I am sure about is I'm not that kind of person. I like myself most when I challenge and work on new things.
I realized that it's not easy to get me excited at a big company like Sony.
I worked an internship at a startup company after I was back from study abroad in US over 2 years ago. It was a very challenging environment and I spent really busy days, but it was always fun to work there.
I could feel I make the business forward and excited.

I always cherished the feeling if I get excited when I work.
However, I don't think I will have such excitement in my current job, and I'm a little scared of getting accustomed to the ways of a big company.
It's nothing matters if I want to get lots of money and spend the "normal life", but I can not be satisfied with that life.
I want to be excited and work for what I really like.

I know it is difficult, but that is what I seek for in my life.

I've actually thought about those worries since I started working in April and I thought very deeply especially the last couple of weeks, and I think I now found an answer, though it's still not clear yet.

First, I start a business.
Next, I leave the company after I found even a small chance to succeed in that business, and set up my own company in another country.

I hope I can get to the second step in a year.
I know it's really a tough process, but there is no reason I don't try.

I'm now 23 and I think the time when I am young is very limited. I don't want to finish my 20's without doing what I want to do from bottom of my heart.
Now I set up a goal, and I never quit until I accomplish it!!

From now, I look for a topic which I can be involved in.


The below is a citation from a famous speech of Steave Jobs at Stanford's graduation ceremony.
Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

Yeah, I gotta do what I wanna do!!